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Question About P*rn — June 16, 2017

Question About P*rn

One of my apparently unique triggers (and the worst) is pornography. it makes me sick just typing that word. However, I recently learned my boyfriend is into that damn show game of thrones… which is by definition, pornography.
we had a big fight about it and its been three days and I still feel anxious. sick to my stomach. I know I shouldn't "control" him by asking him what to watch and what not to if I'm not even there.
I know its just people and I wish it didn't bother me.

whenever I…

Question About P*rn

What helped you walk away from an abuser and not go back? —

What helped you walk away from an abuser and not go back?

I'm dealing with a situation right now that I can't detail… but it's stirring up the same kind of struggle that a victim of domestic violence feels trying to walk away from their abusive partner, and is feeling drawn to go back, because "he loves me" and "promised he wouldn't do it again" and at least they are not alone, and etc.

Because the situation is weird, it's taken awhile to see that it fits this pattern, but this is the second trauma therapist that thinks I'm struggling with this…

What helped you walk away from an abuser and not go back?

Osteoporosis at age 30….yeah! —

Osteoporosis at age 30….yeah!

I was diagnosed this week with osteoporosis at the age of thirty. Right now I am having a really hard time with my doctor. He wanted to put me on an injection of osteoporosis medicine once a year. The problem is I'm 30 and this medicine has been really only used on people over 50. No research has been done on 30 year olds. Also it is already a controversial drug as it causes cancer. It was even banned in the netherlands. So I have decided against the medicine at the moment. The…

Osteoporosis at age 30….yeah!

Therapy flunkie —

Therapy flunkie

Does anybody struggle with worrying about what your therapist might think of you if they knew what was really on your mind? Do your troubles somehow seem inadequate to warrant the need to engage in therapy? Do you ever think that maybe, just maybe, you are a snowflake, and a normal person would not be reacting to things the way that you are? Are you able to check items off the "Crit A list", yet somehow think that your particular circumstance should be the exception that does not deserve…

Therapy flunkie

You Know You Have PTSD When… —

You Know You Have PTSD When…

You know you have PTSD when…

1. …you have more emergency helpline numbers in your phonebook than friends,

2. …you consider Born on the Fourth of July a 'feel good movie',

3. …you see your psychiatrist, your psychologist and your GP more than you see your family,

4. …you can remember the name of every soldier in your regiment from 1967, but you can't remember the name of your only grandchild,

5. …your bestfriend is the psych nurse who hasn't

You Know You Have PTSD When…

You Know You Have PTSD When… —

You Know You Have PTSD When…

You know you have PTSD when…

1. …you have more emergency helpline numbers in your phonebook than friends,

2. …you consider Born on the Fourth of July a 'feel good movie',

3. …you see your psychiatrist, your psychologist and your GP more than you see your family,

4. …you can remember the name of every soldier in your regiment from 1967, but you can't remember the name of your only grandchild,

5. …your bestfriend is the psych nurse who hasn't

You Know You Have PTSD When…

You Know You Have PTSD When… —

You Know You Have PTSD When…

You know you have PTSD when…

1. …you have more emergency helpline numbers in your phonebook than friends,

2. …you consider Born on the Fourth of July a 'feel good movie',

3. …you see your psychiatrist, your psychologist and your GP more than you see your family,

4. …you can remember the name of every soldier in your regiment from 1967, but you can't remember the name of your only grandchild,

5. …your bestfriend is the psych nurse who hasn't

You Know You Have PTSD When…

You Know You Have PTSD When… —

You Know You Have PTSD When…

You know you have PTSD when…

1. …you have more emergency helpline numbers in your phonebook than friends,

2. …you consider Born on the Fourth of July a 'feel good movie',

3. …you see your psychiatrist, your psychologist and your GP more than you see your family,

4. …you can remember the name of every soldier in your regiment from 1967, but you can't remember the name of your only grandchild,

5. …your bestfriend is the psych nurse who hasn't

You Know You Have PTSD When…

You Know You Have PTSD When… —

You Know You Have PTSD When…

You know you have PTSD when…

1. …you have more emergency helpline numbers in your phonebook than friends,

2. …you consider Born on the Fourth of July a 'feel good movie',

3. …you see your psychiatrist, your psychologist and your GP more than you see your family,

4. …you can remember the name of every soldier in your regiment from 1967, but you can't remember the name of your only grandchild,

5. …your bestfriend is the psych nurse who hasn't

You Know You Have PTSD When…

Being dehumanized —

Being dehumanized

I recently realized that my ex (who is a covert narcissist) dehumanizes me. Since I filed for divorce a couple of years ago, I don't recall him using my name in verbal discussions or emails / texts to anyone (including the kids, therapists, etc.), on the stand in divorce court. He always referred to me as "your mother", "their mother", "the petitioner", "her", "she", etc.. I thought it was odd for a while but didn't think anything of it until someone pointed out that it seems like he is…

Being dehumanized