I just need this pain to stop. I am now drinking to try to stop feeling anything. I need this to stop. I am not strong enough to cope, I feel hopeless but I just want the pain to end. I am not strong enough to keep going. I am exhausted and never feel that things will change or get better. There is no way out. I just don't die in this world. I don't function or think like a normal human being. I just want to be free I have had enough of this pain and suffering.