I have never been diagnosed with PTSD, but I have suffered from what I consider is largely self-inflicted abuse as a child. I must've been younger than five when I started experimenting with my older sister. I always initiated it from the pieces I recall. I involved one other child, something I wish I could apologize for. I stopped playing inappropriately with my sister before I turned 10, she was just a couple years older. We both knew it was wrong and we kept it secret forever. We've never…

Could past abuse be affecting my sexuality?