It was all my fault. I let my grandpa touch me. I didn't say anything about it to anyone. I could have stopped it and I didn't. I was so stupid! I thought he loved me. I thought I was special. There were times it felt good and I wanted more of that. I had my first orgasm when my grandpa was doing oral sex on me when I was seven. How could I do that? How could I have allowed that? And I kept going back. I asked him to do that again! I enjoyed how it felt. I was just as horrible…

It was all my fault