I have been really struggling lately, seesawing on the edge of suicidal not just ideation but planning, letter writing and such. I had a really tough session with my T this morning after I let him read the most recent letters to my children. He told me and rightly so that the letters were essentially a big F@@K You to my kids because I allude to them finding out things about me once I am gone. He believes that if I were to succeed at some point and my kids found out about the traumas in…

Opening up to my children