I really hope this isn't off-topic or inappropriate, but I just don't really know where else to ask, and I feel a bit awkward saying this stuff to my therapist (who I really love and is quite good, but, well, it's a bit of an awkward subject, and I'm an awkward girl, so).

It's just that I notice that a lot of my sexual interests and habits seem like I'm trying to act out my assault or put myself in that same position again. [[explicit]] I mean, I was forced to give oral sex while I was…

Does anyone else find themselves acting out their assault in their sex life?