Don't worry I'm not thinking of doing anything crazy at the moment. Especially since I just recently got out of the hospital and definitely don't plan on going back anytime soon. But I won't lie I'm still feeling this way. I'm trying so hard. I promise you I'm fighting like hell but god damn this world is cruel. I'm honestly more afraid to live than to die at this point. I know that sounds dramatic but I've been enduring this pain since I was 5 years old and with this most recent assault…

I don't want to exist anymore.