Lately I have been feeling more and more that I deserve to die.
I am a completely useless human being.
All I do is bring pain to others. If I didn't exist, their life would be much better without me.
I am starting to give up. It's not an outside giving up. It's a giving up on the inside.
I tried therapy, but now I have found that I am even more rotten than I thought. I am a rotten, bad human being. All I do is bring pain to everyone around me.
I am giving up on the inside and I am…