My history is long and confusing. I have been diagnosed differently by various therapists and p-docs. I have spent many years thinking – thinking about my problems and how to get better. Thinking so much that I've realized that "thinking" is a huge symptom of my illness, if not the main cause of it.

There is a delusional aspect to this thinking, but I am now suspecting that even that is probably caused by taking my thoughts too far – taking them to the n'th degree, where I start to question…

Better meds out there?